Down in the Dumps

The mood and the feelings on Saturday May 11, 2019 can best be described as guilty and sad. I have given talks and wrote an article (e.g. Who cares about what ‘they’ think? I don’t care!! Do you?) about not letting little things get to you and being positive about things that come your way. I have confessed before that I am one of those that over analyze things, that is, I tend to read meaning into every little thing that comes my way. While this is something that I have been working to improve on, I found myself ‘relapsing’ that Saturday.

Okay, you are probably thinking, what happened?…am getting there…I promise…I just want to take a minute to reiterate again that if you find yourself in the situation that I am about to describe, it is important to tune out anything (no matter how minute) that tends to affect us physically, mentally, and emotionally. We should focus on the positivity of the situation, find the silver lining and strategize accordingly.  I decided to blog about my experience and It helped me!

Now let’s get to it! I was invited to do a Q&A (topic: Let’s talk about sex: Birth control and Weight Gain) on live video Instagram with some amazing women. I was so excited about this topic and so looking forward to the questions the women would have. Most importantly, I was looking forward to learning from the amazing audience. Then came the time to start the live video, technical difficulties…my gosh! It was a disaster…I could see all the questions coming in from the participants but I just couldn’t respond…God bless the moderator @kiddiesarena_ng because she tried everything from her end but nothing worked…we spent about an hour on this but to put a long story short, the Q&A didn’t take place. We decided to reschedule…

The feeling afterwards was that of guilt and sadness because of these women that took the time to be part of something important to them. It felt like I failed them and I just couldn’t get over it. I was down in the dumps for the most part of the day. Then, my partner gave me the support that I needed by talking some sense into me…lol…He gave me the idea of blogging about my experience and reminded me of what I tell people i.e. to not let little things get to them. That was what I needed, the wakeup call!! This brief experience also highlighted the importance of relying on those close to you when things don’t go your way, including family and friends, to get you through tough periods.

Indeed, this may seem to have been a minor incident, but sometimes it takes even more trivial occurrences to trigger depression and mental health issues in vulnerable people. So always keep those that are dear to you and will tell you how it is (in a proper manner) close by. I am a lot better today and I can only hope those lovely women understand that technology sometimes has a mind of its own…It was completely out of my control and I look forward to having that Q&A with them.